Winter ended alongside my second Saturn return and soon after, my 60th birthday. At the time I just felt exhausted, worn down and hopeless. My SAD went up to 11 this year - aided and abetted by circumstances and grief, and seemed to go on and on and on.
Then with the sun, came life. Potential.
I’m still processing the transition while being in it. It doesn’t feel like, “Here comes something new”; it feels like, “Now I can truly see what was already there.” Like seeing a loved one after years, it’s filling my heart that I haven’t lost my dreams, my passions, my self.
I’m living very much in my body right now. Barefoot, good food, SUN!, relaxation, all the senses, and always forward motion (this has become a key thing for me - literally moving forwards - and I’m going to be writing about how that goes for ADHD people).
When my hands are ready to leave the dirt, the stream, the skin, the dog fur, the juicy fruit, the fresh bread, the plants, and get to the keyboard I’ll be back here more regularly. For now it’s Notes and Stories while I restock on what nourishes me.
Much love.
X
Photo credit: Simon Berger
Ditto on being barefoot. I love the wet dew on the grass in the morning. I wiggle my toes and let it all seep in. 😊
Jo, I get this. I'm a bit stuck, probably for different reasons, but stuck nonetheless... Hope I can post soon. I refuse to let others get in the way of my (our) real life. Love what you know, you always did, always will.